I Dreamt That I Married Her…
I dreamt that I married her
That I asked the perfect question and she gave the perfect answer
But in the dream, we didn’t know why
Why we found ourselves in that position
Why we felt compelled to continue regardless
It just felt right
It felt too fated to resist, against emotion that felt so raw
I wish I could live in my dreams
I sleep hoping that I do not wake
Cos in my dreams, I am not alone
My mind becomes not what alienates me from the world
But rather it is the world
And I am not alone
She symbolises that which I do not have
What I desire above all else
A companion, a friend, a lover
Someone that I can be truly myself with
In reality she is none of these things
For as I wake the memory of the dream fades
I am left with the reality that I feel alone
The truth of it chokes me
I’m left with the bitter sweet feeling
That I had experienced the closest thing that resembles contentment
A blissful haze of emotion
I can only hope the real thing is just as strong
