I dreamt that I married her

That I asked the perfect question and she gave the perfect answer

But in the dream, we didn’t know why

Why we found ourselves in that position

Why we felt compelled to continue regardless

It just felt right

It felt too fated to resist, against emotion that felt so raw

I wish I could live in my dreams

I sleep hoping that I do not wake

Cos in my dreams, I am not alone

My mind becomes not what alienates me from the world

But rather it is the world

And I am not alone

She symbolises that which I do not have

What I desire above all else

A companion, a friend, a lover

Someone that I can be truly myself with

In reality she is none of these things

For as I wake the memory of the dream fades

I am left with the reality that I feel alone

The truth of it chokes me

I’m left with the bitter sweet feeling

That I had experienced the closest thing that resembles contentment

A blissful haze of emotion

I can only hope the real thing is just as strong